Wednesday, May 31, 2006

Getting even

When I'm an old lady I'll live with each kid

And bring so much happiness ..just as they did.
I want to pay back all the joy they've provided
Returning each deed! Oh they'll be so excited!

(When I'm an old lady and live with my kids)

I'll write on the wall with red whites and blues,
And I'll bounce on the furniture..wearing my shoes.
I'll drink from the carton and then leave it out.
I'll stuff all the toilets and oh, how they'll shout!

(When I'm an old lady and live with my kids)

When they're on the phone and just out of reach.
I'll get into things like sugar and bleach.
Oh, they'll snap thier fingers and then shake thier head.

(When I'm an old lady and live with my kids)

When they cook dinner and call me to eat,
I'll not eat my green beans or salad or meat.
I'll gag on my okra, spill milk on the table,
And when they get angry, I'll run if I'm able.

(When I'm an old lady and live with my kids)

I'll sit close to the TV, through the channels I'll click,
I'll cross both eyes just to see if they stick.
I'll take off my socks and throw one away.
And play in the mud till the end of the day.

(When I'm an old lady and live with my kids)

And later in bed I'll lay back and sigh,
I'll thank God in prayer and then close my eyes,
My kids will look down with a smile slowly creeping,
And say with a groan, "She's so sweet when she's sleeping"

Tuesday, May 30, 2006

Didn't sleep

I laid down at 2 am... I was awake at 6 am. I tossed and turned all night. It is amazing how just a few little words ruin a good night's sleep.

I have decided no to talk to any family until the baby is born... to keep my mind free and clear.

Why am I still awake?

I am doing homework. No, I am not in school. I am researching a rebuttle to my family and my inlaws concerns about my pregnancy.

Both my mom and my in laws called and used scare tactics on my due date. I can't imagine a more mean/rude/inconciderate thing to do to a woman who is about to pop!

God has miraculously stitched this person together in the secret place of my womb... He will not just abandon me to the medical profession the second birth is upon us!

I just had to try it...

Here are the places I have been so far



create your own visited countries map
or vertaling Duits Nederlands

Monday, May 29, 2006

Long Life

Honor your father and mother.

I just don't know how to do that anymore.

My father left my mother; He didn't feel loved. She performed all her Proverbs 31 duties... but because of her cold heart, she will always be alone.

My mother hurts and scares her family to control them: because she is scared. She called me and tried to scare me with all the "What If's" about a baby being overdue. YOU DON'T DO THAT TO A PREGNANT WOMAN ON HER DUE DATE!

I seem to remember last Memorial Day weekend... (Dream sequence) We were voted for unanimously to start a new church in Westwood. I called my mom to share the happy news. She proceeded to tell me:

"You are leaving the only support you have" "You are giving up all your financial security" "You are going to ruin your children" "You have no idea how to start a church" (Back to reality)

It was her way of saying: "Don't go, I will miss you". I didn't talk to her for 3 months and sought the sollice of Ben and Jerry's.

I have dreamed of having a mother... like the ones in movies... especially "little women": Supporting me and encouragine me no matter what crazy choices I make. I have dreamed of having a father who doesn't act like a 16 year old, following his feelings.

I am so fragile.

It would be better for me to live without parents, than to bend and flex with each of their words.

So I haven't felt like bloggin

My mind is trapped by only one subject... Get this kid out!

To blog on anything else... seems impossible.

Today is my due date.

Sunday, May 21, 2006

Not bad... try it out!

Your Observation Skills Get A B

Your senses are pretty sharp (okay, most of the time)
And it takes something big to distract you!
How Observant Are You?


I always figured I was pretty Observant... try it out and tell me how you did!

Thursday, May 18, 2006

Just a good quote

"The Bible calls debt a curse and children a blessing.In our culture we apply for a curse and reject a blessing.Something is wrong with this picture." - Doug Phillips

Monday, May 15, 2006

Blessings

My husband and I have been blessed by our parent church. Last night they had a baby shower in our honnor. It was mothers day and people came anyway. It was very special.

This church has supported our church, our family and now our baby. I feel very blessed.

Wednesday, May 10, 2006

California Dreamin'

I have been having good/vivid baby dreams lately.

The best one was last night: I was sitting on the couch in our old house and holding the baby. My mom comes in and asks, "Is it a boy or a girl"... I told her: "I didn't even look".

The baby had a square head like mine and looked a lot like my brother Greg...

We will see!

Monday, May 08, 2006

At least the 2 year old is honest!

Maggie is already planning her birthday... NEXT JANUARY! She is planning on singing for all of her friends. (By the way ~ She can't sing!)

Maggie: "We will go over to the church and I will play my guitar and sing"

Abbie: "EEEEW! NO!"