Can you feel it?

It is begining to thaw... no really! I know we just got 2 feet of snow... but in my bones, I can feel it. Something inside me tells me to plant this week and start thinking about chickens... spring may be here for good this time!

I hate to brag...

This was in my reading today:

Proverbs 20:3 Avoiding a fight is a mark of honor; only fools insist on quarreling.

I could have gone to animal control to pick up my dog... instead, I sent my husband who is gifted in the art of "holding his tougue". I am working on that... but until then, I will just avoid being in that situation!

Is it strength or an illusion?

Proverbs 18:14 14 A man's spirit sustains him in sickness, but a crushed spirit who can bear?

I don't want to exibit a crushed spirit. I am really good at being strong. I need to evaluate if my strength is my pride. My words come out sounding happy... but the stories always end badly. (I need more happy stories in my life) I don't want to be unbearable!

Proverbs 31:25 She is clothed with strength and dignity; she can laugh at the days to come.

I am working on this...

Here is a better one!

Last night Jason slept in the girls room (on the floor) "just in case".

Maggie gets up in the middle of the night with a bad dream, steps over him and comes down stairs. She comes and gets into bed with me and I reminded her that papa was up stairs. She said, "I know, but keeping bad dreams away only works in a grown up bed."

Someday I will post happier thoughts

At 3 am, my 2 yo came to get in our bed, but took a wrong turn and knocked out her two front teeth. Every milestone seems to be a struggle for her and I am so afraid this might set her back. She has always been underweight.

I keep trying to praise God in all things. But it is so hard!

Thank you Lord, that Abbie wasn't seriously hurt, that I live far enough away to be spared from most of my parents ugly divorce, that our dog wasn't hit by a car again because she was out.

The day is over!

Well... today was my parents 30th wedding anniversary. (Divorce is still pending) My heart was very heavy today. I wish I could set it aside and be without all those feelings for a while.

I don't like people!

Animal Control came and got our dog out of our front yard last night. Neighbors said that before they drove up, she was sitting on the porch. Animal Control Claims she was in the street.

She is the only dog in town with tags... and now they want $45 and for us to drive 60 miles (round trip) to go get her!

Error: Not Found

A month ago, Abbie's Physical Therapist asked about "the baby in mommy's tummy" Abbie didn't answer, but with constant questioning, she finally started pointing to my tummy and saying, "Baby Bird!"

Now Abbie points to any tummy and says, "Baby Bird!" But today after identifying the baby bird in her middle she starts shouting at her ELBOW, "BABY BIRD? BABY BIRD?" Then she turns to me and asks, "Where a baby bird elbow?"

Tame The Darkness

I know that is is very dangerous digging through the dark recesses of my mind. Yet I do it all the time.

"Never walk unescorted through your own mind- it can be a dangerous neighborhood."

I think I continue to do this to desensitize myself to it. It's not so scary when you visit every day.

Everybody was kung fu fighting!

Men have a hard time realizing that pregnancy really is a full body experience. My entire skeletal frame is rocked nightly because this baby can now kick my ribs and surnum. My husband had to look to see how much room isn't left between the baby and my ribs.

So far this baby's personality is very "active".