Saturday, September 13, 2008

How nerdy are you?

I am sick... so no blogging... just something to take my mind off my misery.

I am nerdier than 18% of all people. Are you a nerd? Click here to find out!

Tuesday, September 09, 2008


I know my children are all different. But the differences between Maggie and Abbie are night and day. After asking Maggie, "How was school?" or "What did you do today?" you get the minimal answer. Ask the same question of Abbie...

Today I was informed the letter of the day was "H" and the word "shut" should be spelled with an "o" instead of a "u". There was also some comments about playing with a house at choice time and then playing something else when someone wanted the house she was playing with. She also detailed how many minutes she played at each station and the entire contents of her hot lunch... including condiments and spork. She also informed me how she ate said lunch and which condiments she used and blended to make it taste good.

Sunday, September 07, 2008


Happy Anniversary!!!

Ok... maybe not. I am awake on September 7th at 2 am because this is when I watched my house burn down. Ok... maybe it wasn't MY house. But it was the closest thing I had to a home at the time.

The word "Insurance" makes me want to vomit. They drag their feet and we struggle. They want to stop paying for our rent... they withhold information about extra available money. I hate them. Unfortunately this is a company designed to work with churches... so they have policies in place to give churches the minimum amount possible? I try to remind myself to pray for them... so far it isn't working.

I try to remind myself that we just lost "things" that have no real worth. But the sentimental loss is still devastating. I will never show my girls my wedding dress. I will never again hold the teddy bear my mom purchased when she found out she was pregnant. The last quilt my great-grandma made (Out of her own dresses from the 50's) can never be replaced. The crib I placed my 3 oldest babies in is gone. My emotional security is gone.

We live in constant fear. Electrical issues, smoke, alarms, fire engines, sirens... they send us into a panic attack. Will I ever feel safe?

Even if we are able to rebuild, I doubt I would ever be able to live there. The constant fear and mourning would be too much.

Most days I wish we could go... but God has determined otherwise. Anyone stating that my relationship with God must be lacking will be harmed! If I didn't trust God has a purpose for this mess... I wouldn't be here. With my altered state... I wonder if I am really here.

I hope that someday Maggie and Abbie forget about "The house with the stairs" because they regularly state that they miss it. They remember the toys that they lost. They remember not having shoes to go to school. It just reminds me how hard it has been... not just over the last year, but since we followed God's call to come here. It has been 3 years 3 months since we took this call and we have been constantly tested.

Please pray for us, because I am sure that these trials aren't over.

Thursday, September 04, 2008

The world is ending... but it has a great story!


At least the first thought was, "We thought a big white sheet had been spread, so we decided to come and see for ourselves. We thought that it was Jesus who had come back,"


What defines an Antique? Is it something really old? What defines old?

In this town, Antique includes the 60's. When generations are less than 20 years apart, you have your grandma's "antique" furniture from the 60's... and you even call it an antique. I am thinking this is a unique cultural phenomenon.

Tuesday, September 02, 2008

John's Update

John is now 17+ pounds. He is scooting all over and has his first tooth. I just love this hat! It is 63 degrees in the house this morning!

First Day of School!

Here are Maggie's and Abbie's pictures... Abbie is doing well as long as we skip the 120 kid assembly for announcements and the pledge. Apparently that is very scary!

Monday, September 01, 2008

Smash up 20 years apart!

These songs are over 20 years apart... Still SO AMAZING


Labor Day

Just a post that is going around today... I am going to play the game!

How long were your labors?

Kid #1, 12 hours.
Kid #2, 4 hours
Kid #3, 3 hours.
Kid #4, 2 hours.

How did you know you were in labor?

Kid #1, water breaking.
Kid #2, water breaking.
Kid #3, contractions all day
Kid #4, Woke from a nap with mind numbing pain!

Where did you deliver?

Kid 1+2 Hospital

Kid 3+4 Home


Kid 1 yes.

Kids 2,3,4 no.



Who delivered?

Kid #1 Midwife

Kid #2 Dr.

Kid #3+4 Jason

Vacation from people

I would like a Vacation!

From People!

As a pastor's wife, I am constantly used and lied to.

I know this sounds depressing...

Just picture me laughing maniacally.

(Wow, I didn't know that maniacally was spelled with two L's)